Friendship

Monicas apartment from the TV series Friends 
12 Grove St, New York 10014

Throughout my education I changed schools 5 times & I didn't even make it to senior year. Every last day at a school I vowed that I would stay friends with the people I shared my lunch times with.

Naive pubescent me broke that vow 5 times over with an exception of 3 people...

I didn't understand.
How could the people I scavenged for food with after school not be my friends anymore? The ones that I shared the greatest part of my school day with: Lunch time.

Why aren't they my friends anymore?
We still had the weekends? 
Why didn't we hang out on the weekends?
Why did I move schools the second time let alone the third, fourth and fifth?

It was a continuos cycle that I prepared sadness.

The bitter realization that friends forever sometimes doesn't actually mean forever maybe just the duration of the school years. 
Maybe those friendships only existed in the classrooms because we all were forced 8am - 3 pm, 5 days a week.

We didn't choose each other. Our last names chose us to be in same science class. We got along because you laughed at my sly jokes, now you don't. 

I don't even follow you on instagram.

It wasn't their fault for not making an effort after I left, I didn't make the effort. 
Life is indeed a two way street.

What it comes down to is that you can't just hold onto a relationship because it's familiar.
You can't just clasp onto a friendship from the past to talk about the past.

We grow older and I guess something you have to learn as a young adult is we don't loose friends we just learn who the real ones are. Sometimes I feel like that's one of the hardest lessons I've had to come to terms with.

The first time and the thirty - second. It will always be hard loosing contact with someone.

A stranger who walks the streets with my secrets & stories in their head going along with their daily life.

I too now walk the streets next to people that make me laugh so hard that I forget the bad and focus solely on the good.

Remember: Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave and impossible to forget.  You will never reminisce about a good friend because they'll be the ones right next to you